I figured I'd be nice and warn people they are being cut instead of doing it. If you never comment on my entries don't comment here with the same bullshit,I read I just don't comment. Seriously don't. And if you're on my Myspace too,I'm cleaning that up too. I'm sick of leaving comments on here and Myspace and I hear nothing back from you. If you don't like me/have no connection with me that's fine. Don't keep me around because you feel bad. Or ignore me..I hate that shit the most. If I'm taking time out to comment on your shit here and/or myspace the least you can do is comment back. If you don't like the kind of comments I post,whatever,unfriend me then. You should be happy I'm reading and commenting and taking the time out to actually do that. Most of you don't even comment on my entries. If you're skipping my entries then unfriend me. And if you don't like what I have to say in this post,unfriend me,that simple. I'm only keeping people around that I have connections with,that keep in touch with me,that know what's going on in my life,just like I know what's going on in theirs. Sorry if I sound like a mega bitch right now,I just can't take this or the fakeness anymore. Trying to keep up with people who don't keep up with me. That's not right. So if you're cut,sorry but that's how it is. I tried to keep the connection going,and it is gonna suck to cut people I was once close with. I don't know at one point where we drifted apart,that happens sometimes. Its not a good or bad thing. It just happens. I do wish you all the best if I cut you,I really do. And hope you have a great,succesful life.

Also..if you have a second journal that you never update in,I will probably delete that journal but keep your main.


I'm disabling comments because I don't want the drama. I never get why people make a big deal about being cut? I mean I've been cut before out of the blue,and it's just whatever to me. No need to sit and cry and get mad ya know.

I'm going to keep this public too so you know if you've been cut when you suddenly can't see my entries.

Hey guys,hope you all had a good weekend. Mine was pretty good. I met up with my Dad and my half-sister Saturday. I was a little nervous. Most of you know I never had the greatest relationship with my Father. All the lies he's told me my whole 26 years of life. Never taking responsibility for his actions and how he treated my Mom. He was never a part of my life and that was his doing. Anyway,awhile back I found my other siblings(same Dad,different Mom)and started talking to them. They,esp. my half Sister Tiffany,would tell me how my Dad has changed and to give him a second chance. At first,I wanted no part of it,or him. Mainly because when I got married,I told him I wanted him there,he said he would be. Well,he never showed and since then we haven't spoken. Anyway,I decided after much thought to give him one more chance. I let him know that too. I think the main reason why I gave him a second chance was God. I'm a Christian,and I couldn't ever call myself a true one with hate in my heart. Christians don't hate anyone. So anyway,it was a nice visit. He claims to have found Jesus too. We shall see,he's said that before,although I do hope and pray he means it. It was good seeing him. I always wished we had a great relationship,that I was a Daddy's girl,lol. I know it's going to take some time to repair our relationship,but I forgive him and I will try. I hope he meets me half way this time. If not,I will always love him,pray for him. I will have no hate or resentment toward him,I just won't have contact with him. I can't be doing this back and forth with him all my life,this is it. So I pray he has changed and I'm looking forward to getting to know him all over again.

My half-sister came down too with him. I missed her and my half-brothers(wish they would have came down) She is pregnant,which I'm happy for her,and I hope her boyfriend will always be there for her and the baby. My Dad said he's a good guy. Tiffany is only 17 though. But she graduated high school and plans to go to College. She has a good head on her shoulders. Plus I'm not one to judge,I was a young Mom too. Not all young Moms are irresponsible and immature as well. So I hope and I will pray it all works out for Tiffany. Plus I will help any way I can.

Alrighty other than that,my weekend was good. I miss not seeing The Steelers play,they had a bye week. Though like 95% of yall could care less,lol.
Hope you all have a great week! Hugs and Kisses:)

Hey guys,what's going on? Not much my way. Just been relaxing and not really doing much of anything. I joined Bally's today. I'm ready and motivated to lose weight. I'm not losing weight because I have low self-esteem. I HATE when people assume us fluffy folks have low self-esteem because we aren't thin,therefore our main reason on losing weight is to look better. I'm not conceited,but I don't think I am ugly. I don't have low self-esteem either. My reason on losing weight is because I am a diabetic. And if I wanna live to see my daughter's kids,losing weight is what I got to do to get my diabetes under control. Plus I want another child,but I can't have one until my sugar is well under control. Right now it's not,and if I decided to have a baby with my out of whack blood levels my kid would have some serious birth defects. Not to be mean,cause I'd love my child no matter what,but I want a healthy baby. So yeah,I wanna lose weight to get my diabetes under control. Just to be healthy period for life. I'm thinking I wanna lose between 80-100 pounds. Yes,I am that fluffy,I just don't look it. I know it's going to take awhile,and I know it's going to be hard work. I CAN do this though. I am ready,I am willing,I have my husband's support plus he will be working out with me and more importantly I have Jesus on my side!! I just got to remember to take it slow and that it's gonna take time to lose all that weight. I need patience,lol. But I know can do this,and size 18 or size 4 I am beautiful no matter what! Holla at your girl!!!

Hey people what's going on? Not much here, just sitting here lol. Hope you all had a good weekend. Mine was pretty good. My birthday was pretty good. Got to meet bluefire_angel. Hope you had a good time Tara. We def. gotta hang out more often. So anyway yeah,had a good time Friday. The only thing that sucked was that my best friend Chris wasn't there because his freaking wife has him on such a short leash and wouldn't let him come out with me by himself. How stupid is that?! My own best friend wasn't there to help me celebrate. Oh man sometimes I just do not like his wife. I'm sure some of you remember last year me writing in my journal about my last birthday and how she ruined it. Twice I have not been able to celebrate my b-day with Chris and this irks the crap outta me. But what can you do,right...

Anyway I didn't get to trashed altho my friend Walt wanted me to,lol. I wish I would have taken more pics too but I was more focused on talking and getting to know Tara and stuff. Maybe next time,lol.

Saturday didn't do to much,just went shopping. No compaints though cause shopping is always fun. And today I just hung around my Mil's house and celebrated a late b-day with them. So all in all,as I've saod before had a good weekend. Oh please recommend some songs to me,Brennan bought me an Apple ipod as one of my gifts and I trying to think of 1,000 songs to put on it,lol. Lol,I don't think anyone can think of 1,000 songs. Alrighty I'm out. Hugs and kisses.

Hate to do this,but Im just a bit busy right now. So Im gonna take a mimi break,just until after Christmas,then I'll be back. And hopefully I'll have things to post about too.

She did NOT let me take her pictures tonite. I tried,and she was hell bent in not having her pic taken in her costume. Of course she let me take pics of her without it on though,silly child. She did look cute though. Lots of people liked her costume,which made her smile. She likes people,and have conversations with almost everyone. Some lady gave her extra candy cause she said she was sweet and polite. And another lady let Jasmine come in to see her kitty. It was fun,Jas had fun,sucked it rained the whole time though. Jas also had to point out to everyone who offered me candy,that Im not allowed to eat sugar cause Im a diabetic,lol. It was cute she looked out for me,but sucked cause someone offered me a Resses cup and I so wanted to fuck up a Reeses cup! They are my shit and they bring me pleasure from the pain in this world,lol!!!

Oh my goodness,I saw the funniest shit tonite too. There was this dude walking around dressed up as Michael Myers(Psycho dude from the Halloween movies,in case anyone didnt know) looking in peoples windows,lmao! I mean just picture this dude doing that,then picture someone seeing him,how fucking scared would they be?! If I seen that fucker looking in my window,Id have a heart attack for real. It was just so funny. I wonder if he was able to scare anyone? Yeah,the simplest shit makes me laugh.

Popo was out like crazy tonight too,pulling people over. Ive never seen so many cops out like that. Yeah,that was just random right there,but Im in a silly ass mood and the word Popo makes me laugh,so I like to say it,lol. Hey,I did say the simplest things make me laugh!

And heres a picture of Jasmine,cause I know a couple of you wanted to see a pic of her. Yep,she's wearing make-up. I tried to go all out,but she wouldnt let me. She hates Mascara.

THANKYOU TO ALL OF THESE SUPER AWESOME MAKERS!!

I live you with a cute little quiz.

Guilt	What is yours?	Explain yourself
Culinary:	Shrimp	Its fucking good,lol. I could eat shrimp all day. Plus its not bad for you. And shrimp scampi is really,really good.
Literary:	Cosmopolitan magazine	Yeah,I know its not a book,lol but its the female bible! Enough said:D
Audiovisual:	Days of our lives	Hey,its a good soap opera. I get caught up in all the drama. Plus the guys on there are hott!!
Musical:	Eminem	One of the best rappers EVER. I love how he speaks his mind,and doesnt hold back. Hes been through so much,and he deserves to be where hes at.
Celebrity:	Johnny Depp	Uh,hello he's Johnny. Fucking great actor,and the sexiest guy alive:)

Now I tag:-

sexy_hair_boy verita_in_vino trisha_again cory_cats and matthardyz_gurl


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Heres a couple things you need to know before adding me...

1) Dont bring your drama here. Im to old for that shit,and you prob are too.
2) If you just wanna make your friends list longer,bye bye.
3) I comment,and I'd like for you to also. But that doesnt mean comment on my every post.
4) I do friends cuts,but if youre not boring,comment,update you'll never be cut.
5) I like forming friendships with my Lj friends. And I hope you do too.

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